The last couple days have been a bit hectic.
On top of working full-time I have had back-to-back parental duties.
Yesterday was Back-to-School night for my Little who is in an amazing Preschool that takes their job all to seriously, in a good way. At the same time was my Woman’s Bible Study. I just couldn’t miss my group, so of course, I decided we would just be late and it would be OK. Story of my life! So right after work I picked up my Little, we ate dinner near her Preschool, went to back-to-school night and then headed over to church for my Woman’s Study. Seriously these woman are amazing and though I am introverted, I NEED them.
Today was similar, again I worked all day. Then right after work I had to pick up my Little from Preschool, head over to my Big’s School for Curriculum night (Same thing, different name.) then we had a Girl Scout Parent meeting; where we found out our Troop is doing the Fall, Nut and Candy sales. Oh Joy, another thing to add to my plate!
Don’t get me wrong I love all of this, but being a single mom is hard juggling all these schedules. Today, I had 3 thing that were happening at the same time! At one point, I’m pretty sure my head actually spun all the way around…and then I took a deep breath and just said, “Whatever…we will get there when we get there, and it will all be OK.”
Yesterday I was an hour late to my Woman’s group. Today I was 30 mins late to Curriculum night, and 20 mins late to my parent meeting….it is what it is.
Sometimes I get so overwhelmed I forget to focus on what is important.
It’s not doing EVERYTHING. Seriously, I am only one person!
And it’s not being on time all the time…or ever! Really, Rebecca, just give up now. (Yep….I talk to myself. It’s part of this no sleep thing.)
It’s enjoying the small moments that you have. It’s taking the time to make the most of the time that you have. It’s going over their day in the car, and then singing to the radio off key together. It’s remembering that no matter how exhausted you are that you will sleep when you die, and these are the moments you will never get back. It’s remembering that taking care of your needs as well as theirs is important too. It’s remembering that when you lose your cool because you are too tired to even think straight, that it is a beautiful moment to connect with you kids and explain that you are in need of God’s grace too and their forgiveness. After all they are His and you mama are just lucky enough to get to raise them.
As we were on the way home listening to Spirit 105.3 there was an amazing little exert where they asked,
“Are you paving the road for your children, or paving your children for the road?”
We want so much in life to give our children everything we can, we pave the road to set them on the best path we can make. Don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with wanting what is best for our children, but it made me stop and think. The roads we walk down in life our not tailored to us, believe me I did not plan to be a single mother. We choose them, but we don’t have sole choice on how they play out. Our focus is misguided. What we should be doing is LIFE with our kids. The ups, the downs, teaching them healthy coping skills that will help them navigate the roads they will walk in life. We can’t control everything that happens to us, but we can control our attitude; how we react, and how we will proceed. Will we give up, or will we press on? Will we recognize when it’s God closing a door, or when it’s Satan in our way? These are the things that will matter someday when we are no longer there to hold their hands. These are the things they will remember and the things that will be beneficial to them in life. I will no longer pave the road for my children, but will pave my children for the road.